So I know it is really hard to see, but here is the proof that we are finally pregnant!!!!!!!!! We are really excited. We debated back and forth as to whether to tell everyone because of miscarriages. We decided we would love your prayers that is why we want to share with all of you are exciting news.
Our due date is January 15th. Anyone have a good O.B.?
Warning!!!! Warning!!!!!!!! Warning!!!!!!!! This blog is a complete rant. The kids and I had to go to Safeway today on our way home from school. To begin with this is not a good idea. It is lunch and nap time, but I just needed a couple of things. We get out of the car the kids get into one of those driving carts and we are on our happy way. We are very successful in the store. We find everything we needed and we head up to the checkout. The store is very quite so I know we are going to make it through this whole journey. I step in the only line open and am standing behind another women who is checking out. Brandan decides to look at the candy then to touch the candy. Time keeps going and the lady in front of me is still talking to the check out lady about some shrek movie tickets she gets for buying certain items. The checkout lady is rudely telling her that she can't help her. By this time Brandan is trying to open the wrappers. I really don't blame him it is lunch time. Safeway has still not opened another line, I guess they mean business when they say threes is a crowd. There was only me waiting for 10 minutes. Now the manager has come and is helping the lady. He is able to get her movie tickets and she is on her way. I step up, the lady did not apologize for my wait, the manager is standing there talking to her about something not even related to the lost tickets. I am getting very angry at this point. Not only did she not apologize she didn't even greet me. After everything was rang up she finally spoke and asked if I needed help out. I was afraid to say yes, but I had to. It took another ten minutes for someone to come up and help me out. By this time I said I can just help myself out. A man who works there says oh, do you need help out. Oh my goodness I had it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The moral of the story is, I will never go back to SAFEWAY for a few items. I know I will pay more at Roth's, but you can't beat their customer service.
This post may sound dumb for many of you. It is one of those posts that I am going to make a copy of and put it in a baby book for Morgan. One day I know she will laugh about it.
It was bound to happen, I knew it would. We are almost through the school year and not a problem had occurred. Until today, her teacher said, "can I talk to you." Oh no, what in the world. Well apparently Morgan has had some problems with talking in class. She is not following directions because she has become the social butterfly. This may sound stupid, but this is totally out of her character. I'm not in denial, I know she isn't perfect and at home she is always in trouble. But, I did think she was pretty good about respecting the classroom.
Anyway, I told the teacher I would talk to her. When we got in the car Morgan just stared crying and saying she was really sorry. She told me she has a really hard time not talking and she's not sure why. Of course I am trying to not laugh. She is so easy, because she punishes herself.
I told her she will write a letter to her teachers saying she was sorry for how she was not respectful in class. She is also not allowed to watch t.v. today or play her video game. These were huge punishments for her.
I'm sure this won't be the last time this happens, but it stinks when it is the first time.
So I have been debating the last two days whether I wanted to share this story or not. I finally came to the conclusion that you all have gotten to know me by now and will see the story for what it is worth.
Here it goes, I would not consider myself an angry person, but when it comes to parenting I have been known to raise my voice a time or two. A few nights ago we were at the dinner table the kids were done eating and Ryan and I were just sitting there talking over the day. Morgan was sitting at the table listening intently to our grownup conversation about who knows what. Brandan had decided that he needed something upstairs, so off he went to his room. A few minutes later I hear, "Mommy, I had a big potty accident." I jump out of my chair and start running up the stairs as I am yelling loudly, " YOU KNOW BETTER, GET IN YOUR ROOM." He is by this time crying loudly, "no spanking mommy." (for the record he has NEVER gotten a spanking for having a potty accident). I clean him up and we talk about the problem and we are happy again.
The evening goes on and Ryan says, "I need to tell you something, while we were downstairs when you were changing Brandan after his accident Morgan said that when she becomes a Mommy she will not yell at her kids when they have accidents. As tears come to my eyes, I say, "OH NO."
I felt horrible!!!!!!!!!
Then it dawned on me, I could use this as a great lesson. (I think it is the home school coming out of me, that everything is a lesson, right Leslie?)
I called Morgan in and asked her if she was upset with my reaction to Brandan. She said yes. I explained to her that I shouldn't of yelled at Brandan, but I already apologized to him. I then reminded her of all the times that she has yelled at her brother. I asked her to think about how angry she was and how she yelled. So, next time you get angry you remember how you felt when Mommy yelled at Brandan. The point was well taken and she told me she wouldn't yell any more at him.
That lesson lasted at least an hour before she yelled again.
Many of you already know that I am doing the study Breaking Free. I have committed with three of my wonderful friends to dive into this intense study by Beth Moore. When we first started the book I was excited to see what areas in my life are holding me captive. Basically the study reveals what areas are keeping you captive from experncing the life the Lord has in store for you. I had no idea what this book was going to show me ,but I was up for the challenge. Let me tell you I am only in week three and it has revealed more to me than any other study I have done over the years. Ryan and I heard a pastor speak one time and he said nine out of ten people do not live a fulfilled life. I believe that. I can say I have spent most of my Christian life not living the fulfilled life that God desires from me. Since moving to Oregon God has slowly revealed to me that He wants so much more of me than I have ever given to Him before. While doing the study this week, I have learned one of my huge captivities is unbelief. This is horrible to admit, but it is very true. I believe in God, but I do not always have the belief that He has my life in control. This goes with my personality. My CONTROLLING personality. God does not want me to only believe in him, but to let go of my control and give Him all of my life. To allow Him to control everything in my life, even if I don't understand. To have the belief that if I believe in what He has in store for me than His purpose for my life will be fulfilled. Until I get rid of this area of captivity I will not be able to serve the Lord and have the fulfillment of the Lord.
This revelation is so freeing. I bet that is the reason Beth Moore named the book Breaking Free.
How can you describe the best vacation ever? I guess that is the way you do, we just got home from the best vacation ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We enjoyed our family so much. Ryan and I were able to catch up with some old friends. We even snuck away for a night. The weather was a perfect 80 degrees. So today, I am back to reality of MAJOR laundry and house cleaning. I will write more about the perfect week later.