Many people have asked me over the last few months if I have journaled about our experience with Logan. My answer has been NO. I was only able to take a few pictures at the hospital and that was only when my mom told me I would regret not having any pictures of him. I felt that if I wrote down what was happening and how I felt about it then it would be real. If I took pictures of how horrible my newborn looked than it would become real. I just couldn't face it.
This past weekend I was at a friends house and her wonderful Godly mom made me watch a video that had the testimony from one of the "Women of Faith" speakers. She spoke on how at 15 days old she lost her daughter and how through that whole time she wasn't able to speak or write about it. She couldn't even bring herself to go to the hospital and say goodbye to her daughter when the doctors called and said she wasn't going to make it. She spoke about how this time was such a regret for her.
This testimony really hit home for me. She told of how God wants us to walk through our experiences. He gives us these things in life to experience not to walk around. The Lord talks about how we are to go through the the trails of life and he will walk with us. He does not want us to go around them because then we won't see the Glory and purpose that God had for us and others through these times.
WOW, what an eye opening day for me. I want to be able to walk through all of my trials in life with the Lord right there by my side.
Friday, March 14, 2008
Living Through Our Experiences
Posted by Happy McNally Mom at 1:55 PM
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I so remember that testimony, I was crying.
Kristen...you are an amazing mom! Today I wanted to come over and see Logan but I was a bit embarrassed as I walked into the room. I had no idea you ladies were having a meeting. Was my face so red?
such a hard thing to go 'through' instead of 'around' isn't it? it is just our natural inclination to avoid pain, but we grow so much walking with Him in the midst of our trials. i'm blessed and encouraged by what you wrote. praise God that logan is doing well and that you can have more peace now.
I sobbed during that testimony. It was so powerful! You're doing an amazing job, girl. Thanks for reminding me what is important.
Great post. You've given me so much to think about.
Hooray! I finally found your blog. I'm excited to read through it and catch up. And this was such a good post. I too hear Marilyn's testimony at the Women of Faith conference this last fall, and was brought to tears as well. It's a powerful message. I also just listened to a short message by John Piper and he was talking about how it's not through God bestowing upon is nicer cars, job promotions, or bigger houses, that brings Him glory. It's through our suffering when He is most glorious. (major paraphrase)
I'm looking forward to getting to know you better through our small group. See you Wednesday!
I'M GLAD GOD WAS ABLE TO SPEAK THROUGH THE TESTIMONY OF THIS WOMEN YOU SAW ON TV. THATS SO COOL. THATS WHY SHE SPEAKS SO THAT PEOPLE LIKE YOU AND I ARE MOVED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN OUR LIVES. I'M SORRY NOT TO KNOW MUCH ABOUT THIS WOMENS AWESOME TESTIMONY, HOPEFULLY I CAN HEAR IT SOMEDAY.
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